This year i’ve found out so much about myself already. I realize that the reason I like to be one on one with someone is because I want the attention on me. I realize that the reason I seclude myself from everyone else in the room is because I want someone to notice me, someone to sit down next to me and acknowledge my exsistence. I think that because I do this people think I want to be alone. At times sure I do but I really just want friends. I want a solid group of entertaining people to talk with and be around. I had that once in eighth grade but then a boy changed that all. He started flirting with all of my friends so we would sit alone everyday and I think thats where I got the being one on one from. I hate that i’m like this but i’m not sure how to fix it. I’m glad I can admit to having this problem. I have a friend who I love talking to the most out of everybody but the problem is I have to be one on one. I dont mind being around his friends but i’d much rather be alone. & Were complete opposites so he would rather be with a group and I wouldn’t. I want to fix this soon so I dont push him away.
I’m currently sitting on a table by myself in a classroom full of people. I suppose i’ll get up and socialize. Even though I dont want to…
